Do It Right Next Time

Everything about my day is better when I wake up at 4. The alarm woke me up today–I was wide awake, prepared, more than ready to hit my writing and the day–and I chose to do all that “later.” I woke up at 8. And it doesn’t look like I’ll have time to write today. My day feels incomplete without writing. So I’m gonna take that self-knowledge and get my ass up every day at 4. Doesn’t matter what my mind says, I know I need to get up.  And today whenever I’ve heard myself complain, I say to myself, …

Don’t Fear Judgement

Don’t carry yourself with the hypothetical judgements of others ringing in your head. It doesn’t matter what I think of you, or what you think of me. What matters is what we think of ourselves. I’m learning to be more honest about who I am, what I want, what I love. Don’t let anyone–your own negativity included–convince you your truths aren’t worth sharing.  Experience, family and culture have made me afraid to expose these three truths.  1. I am completely devoted to Fernanda. She’s the love of my life. I can’t think of a better person to share my life …

You Never Regret Going All-In

I wrote and worked out with Fernanda today. Ten minutes into the stairmaster, in agony–ten minutes, that was just ten fucking minutes?–I realized something. We should put maximum effort into what we’re doing. Leave it all on the field. Trust the process of hard work, give yourself to what you’re trying to make happen. You grow in those last, sweat-spilling minutes in the gym. You grow when you bust through your block by just writing, writing, writing. Do not quit. On that stairmaster, my mind seriously told me that I should never do the stairmaster again. Your mind, and sometimes …

Springboard for the Rest of the Day

I find that doing something important and positive first thing in the morning jump-starts me for the rest of the day. There’s still work to be done; the day won’t be a breeze. But doing something good right off the bat puts you in the right mentality. I got up at 4 AM, put in my two hours, and now I’m gonna go work out. The writing gets me out of bed. It’s not easy. There are so many little roadblocks in those two hours. Sometimes I think I can’t manage another word. My mind says, “Nope, you’ve lost it. …

When It All Gets Deleted

I was an hour and a half into my writing today and got comfortable. So I stared off at something and when I looked back, it was all gone. I’d taken longer than five seconds to press a key and Flowstate did its thing and deleted everything. I deserved it. I woke up late, I was distracted, I kept looking at the time, and it all got tossed out. I was down at first. But Fernanda reminded me that (1) when this has happened in the past, my writing was always better the second time and that (2) I should …